Nested Orders
Mixed media on paper, 2009
Mixed media on paper, 2009
Ascending
Acrylic on paper, 2009
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Narrative
I was born in Hopedale, Massachusetts a slight shade of blue to a mother who was hemorrhaging and in and out of consciousness. By some miracle we both made it out alive - actually she died and decided to return. I had a childhood, which was nice from what I remember. And school – high school in little old Brandon, Vermont and college at the University of New Hampshire. I graduated with a bachelor's degree in Fine Arts in 2008. I managed to do well in school whether I tried my best or pretended not to try. My passion has been creating art since I can remember. I would draw endlessly and constantly quiz my parents to see if they knew what I was trying to depict in my drawings. Throughout my childhood I took pleasure in designing t-shirts for school plays and events, always creating and learning new ways of seeing.
After changing from the inside out many times over I feel rejuvenated. Art has revealed itself to me as a product of my transformation – the creative spirit gathered and then exhaled, which I can only describe as simultaneously invigorating and exhausting. Recognizing my own handwriting and working with it is both a constructive and destructive passion. My recent subject matter has, due to my own personal struggles over the recent years, reflected the relationship between art and health. The physical body is now an important starting point, but I am much more interested in the subtle energy passing through each one of us. My eyesight is no longer what I rely most heavily on, but a test which challenges me to see beyond it.
My art is entering a new realm that represents the awakening of my spirit. The journey is no longer how I deal with what I’m given, but the ability to share the gifts that I have. Art is entwined with my own well-being, and when I starve myself I feel the consequences.
The interests that fuel my art range from energy transfer and healing, dreams, out-of-body experiences, psychic and transrational phenomena to everyday joys, frustrations and living rooms.
Technique: The process of painting requires a lot of energy for me and I like the energy to be seen in the way I paint - in the brushstrokes, marks, colors and shapes. My goal is not to see surfaces as clearly as possible or to make a painting that replicates the objects of my attention. I want things to come in and out of existence, making the viewer active in the process of discovering and interpreting. While I am making a drawing or painting, I allow room for new ideas to emerge, never clinging too tightly to my original idea. If I feel unsatisfied, which after a session of painting is perhaps more common than its opposite, then I try to comfort myself with the knowledge that what may at first seem to be a failure is actually just the struggle of birth.
In the past couple years there has been a miraculous shift in my perception and understanding of my own body. I went from destroying myself to taking care of myself, and with that decision a new creative path emerged.
After changing from the inside out many times over I feel rejuvenated. Art has revealed itself to me as a product of my transformation – the creative spirit gathered and then exhaled, which I can only describe as simultaneously invigorating and exhausting. Recognizing my own handwriting and working with it is both a constructive and destructive passion. My recent subject matter has, due to my own personal struggles over the recent years, reflected the relationship between art and health. The physical body is now an important starting point, but I am much more interested in the subtle energy passing through each one of us. My eyesight is no longer what I rely most heavily on, but a test which challenges me to see beyond it.
My art is entering a new realm that represents the awakening of my spirit. The journey is no longer how I deal with what I’m given, but the ability to share the gifts that I have. Art is entwined with my own well-being, and when I starve myself I feel the consequences.
The interests that fuel my art range from energy transfer and healing, dreams, out-of-body experiences, psychic and transrational phenomena to everyday joys, frustrations and living rooms.
Technique: The process of painting requires a lot of energy for me and I like the energy to be seen in the way I paint - in the brushstrokes, marks, colors and shapes. My goal is not to see surfaces as clearly as possible or to make a painting that replicates the objects of my attention. I want things to come in and out of existence, making the viewer active in the process of discovering and interpreting. While I am making a drawing or painting, I allow room for new ideas to emerge, never clinging too tightly to my original idea. If I feel unsatisfied, which after a session of painting is perhaps more common than its opposite, then I try to comfort myself with the knowledge that what may at first seem to be a failure is actually just the struggle of birth.
In the past couple years there has been a miraculous shift in my perception and understanding of my own body. I went from destroying myself to taking care of myself, and with that decision a new creative path emerged.
